Just another Friday

It was just another Friday in my book. I wanted to go to Austin tonight, but I can't cause my dad has stuff to do tomorrow and I have to stay there to watch my mom. Sucks but I'll get over it. I really didn't do much. I finish doing what was done of the towels cause last night my dad had a cow because I didn't have the dishes done or the towels on the couch finished. So when I got in at 1 a.m. from Grahams I did the kitchen and a few towels. But ugh. He's been getting on my nervous. I hate when people do stuff for you and they act or tell you that you owe them for it. Ugh thats whats he's been doing. I just keep fight him about it. I've been watching Titanic all afternoon and I remember in Jr high I watched that movie like 14 times. My friend Crystal her brother at the time the movie came out worked at the movies and so at night he would sneek us in for free. YAY. It had me thinking though. The whole Jack and Rose thing. I wish I could meet someone and in like 3 days or whatever feel what her character felt for Jack and vise versa. But the way things are going now that won't happen. Renee and I were talking about our future weddings what we want and don't want. She is ten times closer to marriage than I am. Everyone around me it seems they are getting married or having kids. I'm like shit the way things are going now I'll never be married. I had a dream the other night that Brandon and I got married and we were happy with each other. We had like 5 kids. But a much as I wouldn't mind being with him. I know that would never be. But I think if I had the right people and I knew he wasn't' a player I think I have just as much chance as anyone else. But I'm not gonna do anymore than dream. Since Brandon came over here to that 1st party that we had and we slept together those few times....I haven't felt the way I do with him since Waylon. Thats only been three years ago. It feels longer than that. Well I'm gonna go take my dreams and wishes and go watch television. Hope everyone has a good night.